A little confused about my future but i have no other choice but to continue

This is the beginning of 2010,though 2 months passes away, also the second year of my social life after the dynamic university.
Shouldering so much responsibility and some expectation from my family and friends, sometimes i feel stressed. In the last year, i experienced so many firsts. The first time to travel alone in the city, the first time to knock the door of a company, the first time to make up to make myself look more beauful and cheerful, the first time to spend the whole night in a bar, the first time to say i like you to a boy, the first time to teach ....... so many , i can't list all them here , i am afraid the whole screen can not hold it.
I don't know if they are worth all my efforts, any way my salary has been improved a little about 300 RMB, But life is still very hard here ,for even an bowl of noodles will cost me 10 yuan. At the begaining , facing so many luratives, i just can't control myself

This is my first blog!!! Exciting and Excited

what should I say for my first blog? I have no idea about this. Anyway I have to say something about this for it's my place. By starting this blog, I hope I can do something for the brides-to-be. I am not a professor in this field, but i am trying to make it ! I need your support,my darlings.
I promise i will keep on blogging and make this little place the most intimate world of girls! Expecting my wonderful performance! Are u anxious to see it ? Me,too!